I cry foul, and hope against hope that powers that be fight the good fight to try and stop this

Yes, i truly think that would be good, since you obviously have a way with words...: )

For example this:

"okay belittle me that shall really make you greatness greater than everyone, by you statement you want attention, now that you have mine, what do you really want?!!"

To me it ́s like serious poetry or something like a great rapper would come up...: )

What a rhythm, what a feeling...: )

And i'm 100% serious, in case you think i ́m joking...; )

Okay, everyone I get it, I am a bit too loquacious, and it garners more negativity than what I hoped for, for those who like to be snide, words hurt just as much as the pain you feel, having to place through my written field,

For everyone, of whom needs a little less words for the explanation of what I’m about in my rhetoric,
Simply, I tanked, and forgive me for crying out into the darkness referencing those who would like to play chess with assistance, but, in my meager reasoning, I felt if only I could point the proverbial finger at something other than my chess tilt I could ease my suffering...

But, it seems that some people would rather throw salt onto the wound, and raise my ire, as if it counts, my ire, I was hoping for a nice discussion rather than harsh criticism, but hey, I expected some... so that is not an issue... because I am unable to think I try to write it out, release some anxiety, but seems that I merely compounded it,

And to those nasty people who can’t be civil, have fun when you need to cry in life, reaping what he sow

I did get numerous pieces of advise, turned my head by some with really great ways to look at my ordeal, and thank you everyone, I feel better...

I wrote for myself and as @chesseater78 said in #51:
> Yes, i truly think that would be good, since you obviously have a way with words...: )
>
> For example this:
>
> "okay belittle me that shall really make you greatness greater than everyone, by you statement you want attention, now that you have mine, what do you really want?!!"
>
> To me it ́s like serious poetry or something like a great rapper would come up...: )
>
> What a rhythm, what a feeling...: )
>
> And i'm 100% serious, in case you think i ́m joking...; )
Perhaps I should have written to no one, or publish a book, 8D and left it at that, however, this would not have netted me the solace I desperately needed,
To say snarky things like those of whom had done this really shows your mettle have fun being like that, as I say have fun in your future endeavors this should bring you the best in life, this need to spout drivel showing others how nasty you can be

And of course, I realize how wrong I was making a stab in this way, but, I wrote and reaped what I had sown

I am hurt by all of your harsh words, ... satisfied? And I glow and bask in the comfort others have given, so...50/50
Thank you everyone
@acerb8

For someone who claims to have no time to report suspected cheaters, you sure do have a lot of time to cry in the forums about it.

@LudoBlitz Thank you for the summary!

@Acerb8

I have many a time gone through the yo-yo of tanked performance, woe to the tilted! And i turned most of my anger on myself, but that hurt too much, so i trained some of it at others, projecting it, in my mind accusing them of cheating. Yes, all those who beat me so consistently, cheaters they must be! But in the end i realized this was just my feeble effort to escape the harsh mistress Chessia, who turns a mirror on my poor efforts. It was so often noone's fault but my own. So I mostly let go of that accusation, that my opponents were cheaters. It just added bitterness to my frustration. Now i accept that occasionally I lose due to someone 'getting assistance' and lose no sleep over it. They are cheating themselves. Sorry them. I will try to face my own demons, and let them fight theirs.

I hope you find some solace and eventually the pleasure of the game outweighs your disappointment with a few in this community who let themselves go astray.

And thanks for your words. I did not read all of it, but I agree with other's you have a gift with them!
There will always be those who enjoy being witty or cruel at other's expense.
That's just the nature of a public discourse like this on the internet.

It's not a bad thing to vent. I play on my phone quite a bit not signed in, and the Anonymous world is a nightmare for engine usage. I try and remember though, that I'm always learning something, and try to shrug it off.

Re: moving fast @Acerb8 - fwiw I have a similar problem as all I have time for now is Blitz and the long Sunday Simul. What I would do to slow down is a checklist. What were the changes caused by my opponent's last move etc. before I even look at what I should play. Make that mental list, and go through it every move. Even when the move feels obvious.

Strict rules of chess means you shouldn't do that in writing (you can write your moves down but that's it, I believe) but in a friendly game on here with folks you know, it might be a good drill. Dunno. It helped me.

Anyways, keep fighting the good fight, and be as voluble as you like - we can be garrulous together and enjoy it!

@LinearStork said in #53:
> For someone who claims to have no time to report suspected cheaters, you sure do have a lot of time to cry in the forums about it.

I simply said I had no ngn time to search after everyone I feel cheated me... I did not say I had no time, how many games to do analyze a day? How many games does this platform allow to analyze please when you read, then comment , make sure you get it straight, thank you
@Acerb8

@EmaciatedSpaniard said in #54:
> @LudoBlitz Thank you for the summary!
>
> @Acerb8
>
> I have many a time gone through the yo-yo of tanked performance, woe to the tilted! And i turned most of my anger on myself, but that hurt too much, so i trained some of it at others, projecting it, in my mind accusing them of cheating. Yes, all those who beat me so consistently, cheaters they must be! But in the end i realized this was just my feeble effort to escape the harsh mistress Chessia, who turns a mirror on my poor efforts. It was so often noone's fault but my own. So I mostly let go of that accusation, that my opponents were cheaters. It just added bitterness to my frustration. Now i accept that occasionally I lose due to someone 'getting assistance' and lose no sleep over it. They are cheating themselves. Sorry them. I will try to face my own demons, and let them fight theirs.
>
> I hope you find some solace and eventually the pleasure of the game outweighs your disappointment with a few in this community who let themselves go astray.
>
> And thanks for your words. I did not read all of it, but I agree with other's you have a gift with them!
> There will always be those who enjoy being witty or cruel at other's expense.
> That's just the nature of a public discourse like this on the internet.
Is this synopsis supposed to be me? Or has another have similar experiences ?
If it is supposed to be me, please take the time to read the original posts, thank you

@SomewhatUnsound said in #55:
> It's not a bad thing to vent. I play on my phone quite a bit not signed in, and the Anonymous world is a nightmare for engine usage. I try and remember though, that I'm always learning something, and try to shrug it off.
>
> Re: moving fast @Acerb8 - fwiw I have a similar problem as all I have time for now is Blitz and the long Sunday Simul. What I would do to slow down is a checklist. What were the changes caused by my opponent's last move etc. before I even look at what I should play. Make that mental list, and go through it every move. Even when the move feels obvious.
>
> Strict rules of chess means you shouldn't do that in writing (you can write your moves down but that's it, I believe) but in a friendly game on here with folks you know, it might be a good drill. Dunno. It helped me.
>
> Anyways, keep fighting the good fight, and be as voluble as you like - we can be garrulous together and enjoy it!
Thank you very much @SomewhatUnsound, I appreciate your thoughtfulness and understanding of my plight, hehehe I see, I that if my issue be bad, I should check out the anon side of this platform , then I shall really get a taste of what I am saying I got hahahah how much fun is that...

I really don’t understand why people feel the need to be nasty, form half truths and smear my messages why should you even care, pointing out this... saying that,

Can we wonder if advanced chess is a real thing the future of chess will be, a science fiction writer, (I think Philip k. Dick) has a novel written 3/4 of a century ago about this state of chess being not only accepted but used every time...

Further more, why be nasty to a fellow chess Player crying in the first place, you don’t have to respond and what will you have me do? Not talk about what I feel, do you get to talk about what you feel in life? Why not be nice and allow me

Oooohhhh let’s nitpick and “callout” inconsistency let’s find a simpler way to say that i call all of you big cats on the savannah, how will you prove me wrong ? Can you ? Can you prove that you don’t use assistance while “in-play” why get on me about me not being happy that I feel that I am cheated?

What did I do, for such a response, merely post Any supposition

And how dare you people be nasty at all, what pleasure do you derive from being Ill equipped with merely saying something... anything... I came to this forum being upset and out of sorts, a more than a few felt my pain and attempted to console me, but you, you people with teeth made of fecal matter want to talk about fresh air, what nonsense... it’s not like you people even play chess at all... if you do, simply prove it... not to me, for I don’t care, prove it to those which you want to impress with your nasty remarks, it is obvious that you are not talking to the likes o me when you say such, for I have written nothing to warrant such responses...

It would take the same amount of energy to say something nice as saying something nasty, and the truth is you really don’t have to say anything at all, and if you feel I need to be punished for speaking out at all. Who are you to levy punishment let alone decide what the offense is, and still none of you writing nasty things have even mentioned what I have written offended you enough to be offensive

Then I say That I’m crying, you belittle me, what? cannot we cry?
Keep coming with your nasty remarks, for those who see how you respond shall never come to you with their tears, and when your tears shed there will be even less to comfort you, and this is because of your statements, to make me a mockery so anyone else feels badly cannot come to forum for support?

Last point, read the full text, why ask for a simplified version, too many words?, is that why you people leave the game before resigning, too many moves? Why walk away, just hit the resign button...

Remember, out of 7 billion people there are only 20k chess masters, are you going to try to be one? Are you happy that advanced chess will become the normal before you get your title? How will advanced chess allow more titles?
Perhaps this is why you be nasty, you think if they cancel advanced chess because I question it’s validity as chess you won’t get your title?

Thank you
Aacerb8

@Acerb8 said in #56:
> I simply said I had no ngn time to search after everyone I feel cheated me... I did not say I had no time, how many games to do analyze a day? How many games does this platform allow to analyze please when you read, then comment , make sure you get it straight, thank you
> @Acerb8

You do not need to analyze anything. Send a link of the game in a report to the mods and THEY will look into the account.

But I am not gonna waste any more of my time with this one, you obviously need to speak with a professional and I have my own things going on.