Dear human,
You knew this was directed at you.
So please stop pretending it wasn't here on forums.
Immature of me to post? Sure. But it's a bit annoying that you're getting to play the role of being all supportive when anyone close to me knows that you've been the opposite - threatening suicide whenever I wasn't available enough, always crossing every single boundary I lay out (oh please, I'm a pushover with zero boundaries already, how hard is it to stick with the few I have?), constantly demanding attention 24/7 to the point where I've just completely become a husk of my former self...from a happy-go-lucky girl to someone who's literally infamous for being depressed all the time...
I'd appreciate it if you didn't try to put up a public facade. I know you're struggling, but so am I. And if you're not going to acknowledge that...you don't need to pretend to here.
@greenteakitten I wish I could understand your pain
Isaiah 41:10 Do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand
@greenteakitten said in #20:
> Really? I never get included in "fav forum poster" things anymore :/ haha
It only means you've transcended the boundaries of mundane popularity!
@greenteakitten
Hey Cherry,
I just read what you wrote, and honestly, I don’t even know where to start. That was heavy, and I can’t imagine how long you’ve been carrying all of that. I’m really sorry you’ve had to go through so much — especially feeling like you had to be strong for everyone else when you were struggling too.
You’ve clearly given a lot of yourself to people who needed help, and that’s not something everyone can do. But you’re right — at some point, it starts breaking you down. I hate that it got to this point for you, and I respect you so much for realizing you need to step away and take care of yourself. That takes strength too.
I’m not going to pretend to know everything you’ve been through, but just know I’m not angry, and I don’t think you’re selfish or toxic or anything like that. You’re just human — and honestly, you’ve done more than most people ever would. You deserve rest. You deserve peace. And I hope you find both.
Take care of yourself, truly. And thank you for everything
Hi Cherry, I think it's good that you take some time off after your experiences online. After reading this post and your other post "Will you be my Girlfriend?" I think you made the right decision to take some time off lichess and recover. I hope you can move on and find happiness even outside of lichess or in lichess if you decide to come back. Hang in there, i'll pray for you.
@greenteakitten I hope you are aware that what you have been experiencing is basically grooming.
@greenteakitten said in #20:
> Really? I never get included in "fav forum poster" things anymore :/ haha
Seriously!
I also thought you were a great and famous forum poster actually!!
I don't know maybe your exotic username but i actually considered u famous lol XD
cherry, you don't have to know what is suicide, just don't do it
Sorry to hear you leaving.
@greenteakitten said in #21:
> Immature of me to post? Sure. But it's a bit annoying that you're getting to play the role of being all supportive when anyone close to me knows that you've been the opposite
Hey, I’m really sorry to hear what you’re going through. I hope you get some peaceful time off to rest and recharge. You’ve done so much already, Cherry ^^ you truly deserve a break. All I wish for is that you have a wonderful life ahead <3
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