@Blundered_the_queen said in #15:
> All of this stuff about how much improvement the average person should expect just puts into perspective how slowly I've been improving. And the implications are terrifying.
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> I've been playing chess for over 2 years now. I've had over 3000 games here - well over 5000 if you count my games on other websites, against computers, and in real life. I've never improved beyond my first year, and right now I'm still stuck making the exact same mistakes and I'm still stuck at the exact same rating I was a year ago. Hell, sometimes I even get delusions in the middle of a game. I'd look at a position and I'd think: "hey, I've been here before, I remember losing a game exactly like this! I know it's a losing position, so how did I get here? What do I do from here?" And I'll sit and think for a while and then I'll make the exact same losing move from the game I've got saved, and then I'll analyze it afterwards and the right move will be obvious.
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> I think all this means I've genuinely plateau'd at 1100 . That's as much chess that I can stuff into my almond-sized brain, and I have no clue what to do about this, because it probably means I'm a retard.
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> To be honest, I always suspected I was sub-100 IQ but to have this sort of thing staring me in the face like this is just depressing. I've tried all sorts of resources - Chess with Dr Wolf, chess puzzles, My Great Predecessors, watched lots of chess streams, agadmator, and so on, but I just never improve. At this point it's obvious, even to me, that I'm a fucking retard and I'll always be a retard.
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> I guess if I'm stupid it's probably for the best that I'm at least aware of it.
Your name and opinions of yourself are the real problem. Listen to some positive affirmations, making the same mistakes is from not having the fundamentals down and having gaps in your education. Watching games etc is no good; you practice tactics and playing the "count" look into the chess channel on YouTube (chessfactor) they have a orderly and progressive program thus as you learn you get better just jumping around is just for kicks and winning is much more serious.