I am 20 years old. I have a FIDE rating of 2050 in classical chess. I learned the rules of the game at about 4 or 5 years old and have been casually playing in tournaments since I was around 13/14 years old. A couple years back I used to be absolutely CRAZY about chess. Especially when I just got into it more seriously at about 14, I thought it was my life calling. As time went by, the waves of excitement went up and then down and then up again and then down again, but right now I'm at an all time low. It's a daily habit to go online and play blitz, but I just don't enjoy it as much anymore. Classical tournaments used to be so much fun, but now, after I've been playing for about an hour or so I just can't wait for the game to be over. I have a hard time even finishing a 9 round classical tournament, it just feels like a hassle, like a really difficult, boring job which I would rather not be doing.
I would think that chess is maybe not for me, but I sometimes still get that childish excitement and happiness when I look at a beautiful endgame study or a beautiful, long calculation, which just makes me more confused.
That makes me think of the late great Bobby Fischer (who happens to be my chess hero, and my favorite player of all time). In his later years he would say over and over again how chess is a terrible game, how it's all about memorisation and packing a lot of information into your head, without talent being required....
What do you guys think? Is chess turning into a bad game or is my love-hate relationship with chess just my personal thing? Thanks in advance.
I would think that chess is maybe not for me, but I sometimes still get that childish excitement and happiness when I look at a beautiful endgame study or a beautiful, long calculation, which just makes me more confused.
That makes me think of the late great Bobby Fischer (who happens to be my chess hero, and my favorite player of all time). In his later years he would say over and over again how chess is a terrible game, how it's all about memorisation and packing a lot of information into your head, without talent being required....
What do you guys think? Is chess turning into a bad game or is my love-hate relationship with chess just my personal thing? Thanks in advance.