I've been playing chess pretty much non-stop (every day maybe a couple of hours on average) for the past 8 years pretty much and watching videos for the past 3+, produced videos and helped others games for the past 2 basically with 3 or 4 brief breaks from chess in between.
In the past week, I've lost the impulse and feeling that's kept me going all this time to play chess consistently and have no interest to want to continue. Matters outside of life have had an obvious influence on me, but even through "tough times", I always played chess. Its not like I don't have the freedom to play, I have plenty of time to plan and do so.
I always played during finals week of school, always during summers when I've had no school, during long road trips, sometimes during class, often while working on homework, etc.
I guess its just me realizing that chess has been not as important to me as career work/skills or my other interests, but honestly I'm in shock at how low its gotten for me this past week. If there was a rock bottom for me without feeling saddened, I'm in that place.
I don't need a friend or a psychiatrist here, but just a discussion to verify whether this makes sense. Does it make sense that it matters so little to me right now given how much time I've put consistently for the past 8 years?
In the past week, I've lost the impulse and feeling that's kept me going all this time to play chess consistently and have no interest to want to continue. Matters outside of life have had an obvious influence on me, but even through "tough times", I always played chess. Its not like I don't have the freedom to play, I have plenty of time to plan and do so.
I always played during finals week of school, always during summers when I've had no school, during long road trips, sometimes during class, often while working on homework, etc.
I guess its just me realizing that chess has been not as important to me as career work/skills or my other interests, but honestly I'm in shock at how low its gotten for me this past week. If there was a rock bottom for me without feeling saddened, I'm in that place.
I don't need a friend or a psychiatrist here, but just a discussion to verify whether this makes sense. Does it make sense that it matters so little to me right now given how much time I've put consistently for the past 8 years?