Returning after a long break is disheartening. I did not know I would be this weak.
When I decided to return to chess, I knew I'd be weaker than where I was before. I had no idea how far back I would go.
I cannot see basic tactics. One- and two-move knight forks. Basic move order. Hanging pieces. I have enough time on my clock to see very basic things like this, and yet... I don't.
It's baffling.
It's as if someone has taken an eraser to a tiny part of my brain and removed my skill from existence. What once was there now is not. The space is blank. Empty.
