When I first started I had trouble playing 30 30. I cannot even imagine trying to play 10 0 at your level.
When playing there's also something tedious and humbling you have to do. Play the move you want to play in your mind. Now look at literally every single possible move and ensure that you're not hanging any material. Expect to spend a substantial amount of time on each and every move just going through this process. But the cool thing is that as you do it more and more, it eventually starts to become subconscious and you'll be able to do it without even thinking. And it's at that point you can start to enter into the more fun and enjoyable aspects of strategy and tactical thought.
Also that's the point that I'd recommend starting to hit the tactics hard. This simple goal will help develop your board vision, but tactics help you develop your creativity and see ideas instantly that otherwise you'd likely never see even if you spent a week pondering a position.
When playing there's also something tedious and humbling you have to do. Play the move you want to play in your mind. Now look at literally every single possible move and ensure that you're not hanging any material. Expect to spend a substantial amount of time on each and every move just going through this process. But the cool thing is that as you do it more and more, it eventually starts to become subconscious and you'll be able to do it without even thinking. And it's at that point you can start to enter into the more fun and enjoyable aspects of strategy and tactical thought.
Also that's the point that I'd recommend starting to hit the tactics hard. This simple goal will help develop your board vision, but tactics help you develop your creativity and see ideas instantly that otherwise you'd likely never see even if you spent a week pondering a position.