Paradox

How do I solve this paradox?

I am predominantly a bullet player. Quite recently I peaked my bullet rating, now I'm 2120. My aim is to keep my high rating afloat. I don't want to play blitz/rapid coz I wouldn't do well given quick tendencies in recent bullet practice. I don't want to play 2+1 or 1/2 +0 because they are not my preferred bullet formats. I don't want to play 1+0 because I'm afraid my current rating doesn't represent my true strength, and don't want to lose further. And I don't want to play casual games or else this paradox won't make sense.

What should I do? Is it time to retire?

Make a decision: keep your 2120 afloat until it gets a ? at the end, or keep improving and become a 2200, and later 2300. The choice is yours.

id say if the only reason you play chess is to see a high number next to your name in a time control that doesn't represent the game of chess really well then you should quit

@LichyChess it is satire :), just read the last line about casual games.

And btw @Darksouls , if you don't see the number next to your name increasing then it's probably useless to continue playing the game that way because you are not improving. Also, if bullet chess doesn't represent chess correctly, then yes, I'm playing bullet chess, not chess.